Old Stories

by Dear Kavalier

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Destruction. Reclamation. Repair.
Dancing between the literal and the hypothetical, Old Stories, the first full length album by Dear Kavalier, features songs about taking back what time and hardship have erode, dealing with the struggles of personal identity and a marriage that nearly didn't survive.


released August 25, 2013

All songs, vocals, and instrumentation by Shaun Fox
Drums and percussion on all tracks by Ryan Morris

Written & Produced by Dear Kavalier
Engineered by Ryan Morris
Mixed & Mastered by Nate Howell

Artwork by Terra Fox

2013 Caffeinated Mammal

Special thank you to my wife, Terra, and my cousin, Ben. Without the love, support, patience, and occasional push, Dear Kavalier wouldn't exist.


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Dear Kavalier Hickory, North Carolina

Indie/emo outfit established 2010

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Track Name: Best/Worst
I’m more of a social moth
I hide and wait for others to come
Searching through the dark
I would be content forever
If I never had to show you
What is buried in my heart

But it seeps out through my pores
I feel it coursing through my veins
And it eats my flesh away
Until I’m disgusted by the sight of these bones

I want to be a better man
I want to live with all the virtue
I was taught to represent
But the best of hearts aside
I fear that the worst in him
Has become the worst in me

We’re only heroes until we’re exposed
Then we’re equals, maybe less, or we’re just sad and alone
As I bury my dark passenger I pray there’s nothing left
How can I value human life if I can’t find the value of my own?

I can’t tell the difference between
Who I am and who I swore I’d never be
If it makes any difference I swear
I’d fight before I let it get the best of me
Maybe we’re all fucked in ways that we don’t know yet
But honestly, who am I to think I’m any better?
I’m so bent on forging my own pathway
That I can’t see the shadow bastard
Creeping in and under my skin
Track Name: Restless Legs
We were sworn to each other faithfully and gracefully
To break away from our past set out alone
We're not as innocent as we used to be
But maybe nothing ever stays that pure anymore

I'll be the wings that you never knew you needed
I'll be the lark whose song will sing you to sleep at night
I'll take you anywhere that you would ever want to go

We've seen what it takes to make it
And we're making the best of what we have
And we're not alone
We'll surround ourselves with the energies
To fight these restless legs and swollen insides
I’m sure there's hope there after all

Here's to the last time that we'll fall
We've seen our darkest place
And we know how to dig ourselves back out now
We've done our best now after all
We've seen our darkest place
And we know how to keep ourselves back out now
Who said we'd never get it right?
Track Name: 28 More Years
In 28 more years I’ll be dead and buried
And carried on from here
You’ll be alone or you’ll have moved on
This house we made our home
Will bear it’s boarded windows and grass that’s overgrown
It will fill with dust and they’ll forget about us

In 28 more years you’ll be weeping over
The kids we never had
Who would they become when they had grown up?
The plans that we once made
Will bear to witness that I never should have stayed
We’re buried in regret and a mountain of debt

Oh my god, I’ve lost more than
What little faith I had left in you
Now the only thing I pray for
Is a quick and easy break from this place
Because we’re all depraved and god knows
I don’t think anyone deserves anything anymore
So render me aimless, consider me absent, and call me insincere
Becuse there are no words in me
And there is no hope in me
We’re all destined to burn sometime
Track Name: Sometimes Friends Can Be Assholes
When you broke our plans
To leave town with all of our friends
I was left out of all of your inside jokes
To catch up in pictures that you took
And its all that I have now

You always had the higher opinion
Like when you said that I barely knew that girl
But she's here for me now
And where are you?

I always thought that our friendship
Could span the width of the country
But I think we lost something between state lines
That's something else I don't think we can make right
Because its all gone now

I based myself on what I thought would please you
But I always fell too many steps behind
So I'll live for me now
And who the hell are you?

I've lived for so long
Under the impression that my friends can do no wrong
Because everybody loves you
Or they just want to be you
But you're so goddamn intimidating
With your master's degree in douchebaggery
Track Name: A Long Way Down
The doorbell rings at 5am again, but it's not who you'd expect
It's a man in dark blue slacks and a badge to match
He says, "I'm sorry to come her like this, miss,
But I've come to take him in
There's been an incident and the evidence points here."
In the back room the last shot's chambered
He screams, "I'd rather go out than go with them!
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye..."

She screams, she screams, "How could you let this happen?"
The hole in his head has left a bigger hole in the family
What about the child he didn't know she bears?
How could she bear to watch him grow up without his daddy?
So she dries her tears and she disappears
How the hell can she live with what he left her
When despair is all she has?

So goodnight, goodnight
Hope your sweet dreams see you off well
It's so awful to know that you're waking up nightly
In cold sweat screaming his name
How could he leave this all on you?
Now you'd rather give up than see this through
So you'll take these pills and utter your last goodbye
Track Name: Dealing Absolutes
Tiptoeing these shorelines
Waiting for a ghost to come
And shake me from this blank stare
I've been wearing the past fifteen years
We'll all be fine
In this plane crash world we've founded
Where hope divides
Our willingness to thrive

If we all subscribe the same
What a dull place this would be
Where there's no room for clemency
You're overconfident in dealing absolutes
With fear and control disguising as love
You're so sure that we're all
So absolutely wrong

Slipping from this bloodline
Begging me to stop questioning
Then plans you had for my life
Return, repent, reclaim what was when
But I'll be fine
In fact I'm better off alone here
Where faith divides
What's wrong from what is right

It's so goddamn heartbreaking

I think we all find our own truth
In scattered memories and fading youth
Maybe if we just wait a while
We'll find that it all comes down to nothing
But if its fighting loneliness
Then maybe it's all for the best
If we live and let live before we all die
This isn't how it should be
Think of what it could be if we tried
To live and let live before we all die
Track Name: The Altruist
If this is what it takes to be forgiven
Then this is what I’ll do to stay alive
I was born to disappoint
This tragedy is bleak
Who will be left weeping here for me?

I doubt I’ll ever feel secure again
If there’s anyone who’s got
More to give than me
But I’ll stay and bear this and hope
That we never make the same mistakes
They’re just old stories now anyway

In the best interest of everyone but me
I’ll bow my head and step back graciously
I’ll make my bed where dead girls lie
And hope for better dreams
For them, for you, and for me

I’ll make my bed where dead girls lie
And sleep
Track Name: What the Good Lord Says
When the Good Lord says its done then its done
When the Good Lord says you're gone then you're gone
When the Good Lord says its all wrapped up
And he gives his gift, fills us up with hope
Takes it back again
He takes it back again

When the good wife says she's done then she's done
When the good wife says she's gone then she's gone
When the good wife's shit is all packed up
And she takes these kids and she leaves her note
She'll be back again
But will she be back again?

She's gone
But will she be back again?
Oh God, I've lost everything

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